Today is May day, or Beltane, one of the eight special days of the Wiccan. Beltane marks the beginning of Summer. (actually it's the 2nd and it's taken me a few days to put this together!) It's a time of celebration and life, new beginnings, and fertility. It is said the veil between the worlds is thin and the Queen of the Faeries rides her white horse trying to draw away unexpecting victims to the fairyland.
"The central color of Beltane is green. Green is the color of growth, abundance, plentiful harvest, abundant crops, fertility, and luck. White is another color that is customary, white brings the energies of cleansing, peace, spirituality, and the power to dispel negativity. Another color is red who brings along the qualities of energy, strength, sex, vibrancy, quickening, health, consummation and retention. Sun energy, life force and happiness are brought to Beltane by the color yellow. Blues and purples (Sagittarius energies: expansion, Good Fortune, magic, spiritual power, Success), and pinks (Venus energies). Beltane is rich in vibrant color, lighting the eyes and cheering the Spirit as we leave the dreariness of winter behind." Read the full history HERE.
Beltane has always been special to me but this year has taken on a lot more personal meaning. I finally made a break through and am really connecting to the energy and spirit around me. This Beltane is ushering in a lot of new energy and rapidly attacking old energy that has died off. It has made me "clean house." I've gotten a Spring Cleaning in my soul. I'm exhausted from the efforts. Mental clarity is the first one. I've had some pretty sobering moments over the last few months. Moments that forced me to ask myself why I'm here. What am I supposed to be doing? How can I be self generating a sustainable source of living while continuing to do what I love? I know I am never going to work for another person again. I refuse. I know that I have to take all things I love and make them produce. So that's my goal right now... sifting through my feeling about all my talents and deciding what to do with them. There are two things I want this year. I want my personal trainer certificate from the National Academy of Sports Medicine. And I want to go back to school to be a licensed massage therapist. That will require me taking the GED test. I am up for the challenge. I want to do what I am doing on a much broader scale. I want more visibility. But as always I do not want to compromise, or water down, my sexuality and explicitness. I am a sexual being and a pleasure activist. A Radical Faerie. I want to bridge the gap between the mundane and the magical. I want to live and function in the world yet at the same time open that portal into the cosmic.
I guess if you try hard enough and long enough you will attract to yourself the right people who share the same vision. I live in my own little bubble of a world. It's very small even though it might appear to be large. After the horrible month of April I am taking the opportunity to totally reset myself in May. I am considering shooting new instructional videos in men's sexual fitness. If you want to buy a copy of all my previous work contact me here. I love collecting pictures off Tumblr. I find a lot of beautiful erotic pictures that I keep in my Faerie folder. I though I would inspire you with a little gallery. Whenever I need to fantasize about the Faerie world I look to my collection.